would be reported to my grandmother, made him bear
this treatment for many months. He was a crafty
man, and resorted to many means to accomplish his
purposes. Sometimes he had stormy, terrific ways,
that made his victims tremble; sometimes he assumed
a gentleness that he thought must surely subdue.
Of the two, I preferred his stormy moods, although
they left me trembling. He tried his utmost to
corrupt the pure principles my grandmother had instilled.
He peopled my young mind with unclean images, such
as only a vile monster could think of. I turned
from him with disgust and hatred. But he was
my master. I was compelled to live under the same
roof with him—where I saw a man forty years
my senior daily violating the most sacred commandments
of nature. He told me I was his property; that
I must be subject to his will in all things.
My soul revolted against the mean tyranny. But
where could I turn for protection? No matter whether
the slave girl be as black as ebony or as fair as
her mistress. In either case, there is no shadow
of law to protect her from insult, from violence, or
even from death; all these are inflicted by fiends
who bear the shape of men. The mistress, who
ought to protect the helpless victim, has no other
feelings towards her but those of jealousy and rage.
The degradation, the wrongs, the vices, that grow
out of slavery, are more than I can describe.
They are greater than you would willingly believe.
Surely, if you credited one half the truths that are
told you concerning the helpless millions suffering
in this cruel bondage, you at the north would not help
to tighten the yoke. You surely would refuse
to do for the master, on your own soil, the mean and
cruel work which trained bloodhounds and the lowest
class of whites do for him at the south.
Every where the years bring to all enough of sin and
sorrow; but in slavery the very dawn of life is darkened
by these shadows. Even the little child, who
is accustomed to wait on her mistress and her children,
will learn, before she is twelve years old, why it
is that her mistress hates such and such a one among
the slaves. Perhaps the child’s own mother
is among those hated ones. She listens to violent
outbreaks of jealous passion, and cannot help understanding
what is the cause. She will become prematurely
knowing in evil things. Soon she will learn to
tremble when she hears her master’s footfall.
She will be compelled to realize that she is no longer
a child. If God has bestowed beauty upon her,
it will prove her greatest curse. That which
commands admiration in the white woman only hastens
the degradation of the female slave. I know that
some are too much brutalized by slavery to feel the
humiliation of their position; but many slaves feel
it most acutely, and shrink from the memory of it.
I cannot tell how much I suffered in the presence
of these wrongs, nor how I am still pained by the
retrospect. My master met me at every turn, reminding
me that I belonged to him, and swearing by heaven