My mother was all in smiles; I believe that was one of the happiest moments of her life.  Either to put me more at ease or to show me off, she asked me to play something for my father.  There is only one thing in the world that can make music, at all times and under all circumstances, up to its general standard; that is a hand-organ, or one of its variations.  I went to the piano and played something in a listless, half-hearted way.  I simply was not in the mood.  I was wondering, while playing, when my mother would dismiss me and let me go; but my father was so enthusiastic in his praise that he touched my vanity—­which was great—­and more than that; he displayed that sincere appreciation which always arouses an artist to his best effort, and, too, in an unexplainable manner, makes him feel like shedding tears.  I showed my gratitude by playing for him a Chopin waltz with all the feeling that was in me.  When I had finished, my mother’s eyes were glistening with tears; my father stepped across the room, seized me in his arms, and squeezed me to his breast.  I am certain that for that moment he was proud to be my father.  He sat and held me standing between his knees while he talked to my mother.  I, in the mean time, examined him with more curiosity, perhaps, than politeness.  I interrupted the conversation by asking:  “Mother, is he going to stay with us now?” I found it impossible to frame the word “father”; it was too new to me; so I asked the question through my mother.  Without waiting for her to speak, my father answered:  “I’ve got to go back to New York this afternoon, but I’m coming to see you again.”  I turned abruptly and went over to my mother, and almost in a whisper reminded her that I had an appointment which I should not miss; to my pleasant surprise she said that she would give me something to eat at once so that I might go.  She went out of the room and I began to gather from off the piano the music I needed.  When I had finished, my father, who had been watching me, asked:  “Are you going?” I replied:  “Yes, sir, I’ve got to go to practice for a concert.”  He spoke some words of advice to me about being a good boy and taking care of my mother when I grew up, and added that he was going to send me something nice from New York.  My mother called, and I said good-bye to him and went out.  I saw him only once after that.

I quickly swallowed down what my mother had put on the table for me, seized my cap and music, and hurried off to my teacher’s house.  On the way I could think of nothing but this new father, where he came from, where he had been, why he was here, and why he would not stay.  In my mind I ran over the whole list of fathers I had become acquainted with in my reading, but I could not classify him.  The thought did not cross my mind that he was different from me, and even if it had, the mystery would not thereby have been explained; for, notwithstanding my changed relations with most of my schoolmates, I had only a faint knowledge of prejudice and no idea at all how it ramified and affected our entire social organism.  I felt, however, that there was something about the whole affair which had to be hid.