Father was a very hard worldly Man, and proud; so
that there was no reason to believe he would easily
be brought to think there was any thing in any Woman’s
Person or Character that could ballance the Disadvantage
of an unequal Fortune. In the mean time the
Son continued his Application to me, and omitted no
Occasion of demonstrating the most disinterested Passion
imaginable to me; and in plain direct Terms offer’d
to marry me privately, and keep it so till he should
be so happy as to gain his Fathers Approbation,
or become possessed of his Estate. I passionately
loved him, and you will believe I did not deny such
a one what was my Interest also to grant. However
I was not so young, as not to take the Precaution
of carrying with me a faithful Servant, who had been
also my Mothers Maid, to be present at the Ceremony.
When that was over I demanded a Certificate, signed
by the Minister, my Husband, and the Servant I just
now spoke of. After our Nuptials, we conversed
together very familiarly in the same House; but
the Restraints we were generally under, and the
Interviews we had, being stolen and interrupted,
made our Behaviour to each other have rather the impatient
Fondness which is visible in Lovers, than the regular
and gratified Affection which is to be observed
in Man and Wife. This Observation made the
Father very anxious for his Son, and press him to
a Match he had in his Eye for him. To relieve
my Husband from this Importunity, and conceal the
Secret of our Marriage, which I had reason to know
would not be long in my power in Town, it was resolved
that I should retire into a remote Place in the Country,
and converse under feigned Names by Letter.
We long continued this Way of Commerce; and I with
my Needle, a few Books, and reading over and over my
Husbands Letters, passed my Time in a resigned Expectation
of better Days. Be pleased to take notice,
that within four Months after I left my Husband
I was delivered of a Daughter, who died within few
Hours after her Birth. This Accident, and the
retired Manner of Life I led, gave criminal Hopes
to a neighbouring Brute of a Country Gentle-man, whose
Folly was the Source of all my Affliction. This
Rustick is one of those rich Clowns, who supply
the Want of all manner of Breeding by the Neglect
of it, and with noisy Mirth, half Understanding, and
ample Fortune, force themselves upon Persons and
Things, without any Sense of Time and Place.
The poor ignorant People where I lay conceal’d,
and now passed for a Widow, wondered I could be
so shy and strange, as they called it, to the Squire;
and were bribed by him to admit him whenever he
thought fit. I happened to be sitting in a little
Parlour which belonged to my own Part of the House,
and musing over one of the fondest of my Husbands
Letters, in which I always kept the Certificate
of my Marriage, when this rude Fellow came in, and
with the nauseous Familiarity of such unbred Brutes,
snatched the Papers out of my Hand. I was immediately
under so great a Concern, that I threw my self at