What was he expecting then?  Nothing.  He was clinging to the fragments of his beliefs, he remained hanging there, not daring to stir, to think, or to turn, for fear of rolling to the bottom of some unknown abyss.  But suddenly everything is changed, everything is transformed, everything takes another aspect.  The whole world is illumined.  Religion, dogma, mysteries, altar, priest, what is all that?  God even.  He thinks no more of him.

A woman’s look has obliterated all.

A woman’s voice has murmured in his ear and he perceives that he is young, that he is strong, that he has a heart, and that all cries to him at once:  Love!  Love!

Oh! what a wonderful thing love is!  What frenzy, what delirium, what madness!  Sublime madness, ravishing delirium, delicious frenzy.

First and last mystery of nature, first and last voice of the universe.

It is thou, oh God, who givest life to all, who dost animate all, who art the principle of all.  Thou art Alpha and Omega; thou art the potent arm which has caused the worlds to rise, which has re-united the scattered forces of matter, which has made order out of chaos.

And there are found men, creatures, works of love like everything which moves, breathes, buds, shoots forth, there are found creatures who have dared to say:  Love is evil.

They have sworn to renounce love.  They have spat in thy face, fruitful, creative Divinity, they have denied thee on their impure altars.

But it is their God who is evil, as Proudhon said, that senseless and ludicrous God who delights in grotesque saturnalia, in ridiculous prayers, in shameful mummeries, in vows contrary to nature.

Marcel felt himself transformed.

A new feeling was born in him and plunged him into ineffable delight.

Nevertheless, as I have said, he experienced a vague fear; he had had a glimpse of the unknown, and he was one of those delicate and timid souls with their thoughts in some way turned upon themselves, which are terrified at the unknown.

Seized with a restless apprehension and with a mysterious trouble, he felt the hour coming which was about to change his life.

XXVI.

OF YOUNG GIRLS IN GENERAL.

“You tell me, Madame, that this description is neither in the taste of Ovid nor that of Quinault.  I agree, my dear, but I am not in a humour to say soft things.”

  VOLTAIRE (Dict.  Phil.).

The great fault, in my opinion, both of the writer and of the poet, is to idealize woman too much, and especially the young girl.

On the stage just as in the novel, the heroines are placed on a sort of pedestal where they receive haughtily the incense and homage of poor mankind.

They are perfect beings, of superior essence, gifted with all the beauties and all the virtues, whose white robes of innocence never receive, amidst all the impurities, of our social state, the slightest splash.