could only feel he ought to have rendered her some
service—saved her from a capsized boat
in the bay or at least recovered her dressing-bag,
filched from her cab in the streets of Naples by a
lazzarone with a stiletto. Or it would have
been nice if he could have been taken with fever all
alone at his hotel, and she could have come to look
after him, to write to his people, to drive him out
in convalescence. Then they would be in possession
of the something or other that their actual show seemed
to lack. It yet somehow presented itself, this
show, as too good to be spoiled; so that they were
reduced for a few minutes more to wondering a little
helplessly why—since they seemed to know
a certain number of the same people—their
reunion had been so long averted. They didn’t
use that name for it, but their delay from minute
to minute to join the others was a kind of confession
that they didn’t quite want it to be a failure.
Their attempted supposition of reasons for their
not having met but showed how little they knew of
each other. There came in fact a moment when
Marcher felt a positive pang. It was vain to
pretend she was an old friend, for all the communities
were wanting, in spite of which it was as an old friend
that he saw she would have suited him. He had
new ones enough—was surrounded with them
for instance on the stage of the other house; as a
new one he probably wouldn’t have so much as
noticed her. He would have liked to invent something,
get her to make-believe with him that some passage
of a romantic or critical kind had originally
occurred. He was really almost reaching out
in imagination—as against time—for
something that would do, and saying to himself that
if it didn’t come this sketch of a fresh start
would show for quite awkwardly bungled. They
would separate, and now for no second or no third
chance. They would have tried and not succeeded.
Then it was, just at the turn, as he afterwards made
it out to himself, that, everything else failing, she
herself decided to take up the case and, as it were,
save the situation. He felt as soon as she spoke
that she had been consciously keeping back what she
said and hoping to get on without it; a scruple in
her that immensely touched him when, by the end of
three or four minutes more, he was able to measure
it. What she brought out, at any rate, quite
cleared the air and supplied the link—the
link it was so odd he should frivolously have managed
to lose.
“You know you told me something I’ve never forgotten and that again and again has made me think of you since; it was that tremendously hot day when we went to Sorrento, across the bay, for the breeze. What I allude to was what you said to me, on the way back, as we sat under the awning of the boat enjoying the cool. Have you forgotten?”