listened to them without in the least pricking up
his ears; on the other hand the real truth was equally
liable at any moment to rise to the surface, and the
auditor would then have wondered indeed what they
were talking about. They had from an early hour
made up their mind that society was, luckily, unintelligent,
and the margin allowed them by this had fairly become
one of their commonplaces. Yet there were still
moments when the situation turned almost fresh—usually
under the effect of some expression drawn from herself.
Her expressions doubtless repeated themselves, but
her intervals were generous. “What saves
us, you know, is that we answer so completely to so
usual an appearance: that of the man and woman
whose friendship has become such a daily habit—or
almost—as to be at last indispensable.”
That for instance was a remark she had frequently
enough had occasion to make, though she had given
it at different times different developments.
What we are especially concerned with is the turn
it happened to take from her one afternoon when he
had come to see her in honour of her birthday.
This anniversary had fallen on a Sunday, at a season
of thick fog and general outward gloom; but he had
brought her his customary offering, having known her
now long enough to have established a hundred small
traditions. It was one of his proofs to himself,
the present he made her on her birthday, that he hadn’t
sunk into real selfishness. It was mostly nothing
more than a small trinket, but it was always fine
of its kind, and he was regularly careful to pay for
it more than he thought he could afford. “Our
habit saves you, at least, don’t you see? because
it makes you, after all, for the vulgar, indistinguishable
from other men. What’s the most inveterate
mark of men in general? Why the capacity to
spend endless time with dull women—to spend
it I won’t say without being bored, but without
minding that they are, without being driven off at
a tangent by it; which comes to the same thing.
I’m your dull woman, a part of the daily bread
for which you pray at church. That covers your
tracks more than anything.”
“And what covers yours?” asked Marcher,
whom his dull woman could mostly to this extent amuse.
“I see of course what you mean by your saving
me, in this way and that, so far as other people are
concerned—I’ve seen it all along.
Only what is it that saves you? I often
think, you know, of that.”
She looked as if she sometimes thought of that too,
but rather in a different way. “Where
other people, you mean, are concerned?”
“Well, you’re really so in with me, you
know—as a sort of result of my being so
in with yourself. I mean of my having such an
immense regard for you, being so tremendously mindful
of all you’ve done for me. I sometimes
ask myself if it’s quite fair. Fair I mean
to have so involved and—since one may say
it—interested you. I almost feel as
if you hadn’t really had time to do anything
else.”