consoled and edified by visiting her bed of suffering.
On the 23rd of October 1813, she was carried to another
lodging, the window of which looked out upon a garden.
The condition of the saintly nun became day by day
more painful. Her stigmas were a source of indescribable
suffering to her, down to the moment of her death.
Instead of allowing her thoughts to dwell upon those
graces to the interior presence of which they bore
such miraculous outward testimony, she learned from
them lessons of humility, by considering them as a
heavy cross laid upon her for her sins. Her suffering
body itself was to preach Jesus crucified. It
was difficult indeed to be an enigma to all persons,
an object of suspicion to the greatest number, and
of respect mingled with fear to some few, without
yielding to sentiments of impatience, irritability,
or pride. Willingly would she have lived in entire
seclusion from the world, but obedience soon compelled
her to allow herself to be examined and to have judgment
passed upon her by a vast number of curious persons.
Suffering, as she was, the most excruciating pains,
she was not even allowed to be her own mistress, but
was regarded as something which everyone fancied he
had a right to look at and to pass judgment upon,—often
with no good results to anyone, but greatly to the
prejudice of her soul and body, because she was thus
deprived of so much rest and recollection of spirit.
There seemed to be no bounds to what was expected
of her, and one fat man, who had some difficulty in
ascending her narrow winding staircase, was heard to
complain that a person like Anne Catherine, who ought
to be exposed on the public road, where everyone could
see her, should remained in a lodging so difficult
to reach. In former ages, persons in her state
underwent in private the examination of the spiritual
authorities, and carried out their painful vocation
beneath the protecting shadow of hallowed walls; but
our suffering heroine had been cast forth from the
cloister into the world at a time when pride, coldness
of heart, and incredulity were all the vogue; marked
with the stigmas of the Passion of Christ, she was
forced to wear her bloody robe in public, under the
eyes of men who scarce believed in the Wounds of Christ,
far less in those which were but their images.
Thus this holy woman, who in her youth had been in the habit of praying for long hours before pictures of all the stages of Christ’s painful Passion, or before wayside crosses, was herself made like unto a cross on the public road, insulted by one passer by, bathed in warm tears of repentance by a second, regarded as a mere physical curiosity by a third, and venerated by a fourth, whose innocent hands would bring flowers to lay at her feet.