of certain portions of the Christian community—and,
finally, to endure many and various sufferings in
satisfaction for the souls of purgatory. All these
sufferings appeared like real illnesses, which took
the most opposite and variable forms, and she was
placed entirely under the care of the doctor, who
endeavoured by earthly remedies to cure illnesses which
in reality were the very sources of her life.
She said on this subject—’Repose in
suffering has always appeared to me the most desirable
condition possible. The angels themselves would
envy us, were envy not an imperfection. But for
sufferings to bear really meritorious we must patiently
and gratefully accept unsuitable remedies and comforts,
and all other additional trials. I did not myself
fully understand my state, nor know what it was to
lead to. In my soul I accepted my different sufferings,
but in my body it was my duty to strive against them.
I had given myself wholly and entirely to my Heavenly
Spouse, and his holy will was being accomplished in
me; but I was living on earth, where I was not to rebel
against earthly wisdom and earthly prescriptions.
Even had I fully comprehended my state, and had both
time and power to explain it, there was no one near
who would have been able to understand me. A doctor
would simply have concluded that I was entirely mad,
and would have increased his expensive and painful
remedies tenfold. I have suffered much in this
way during the whole of my life, and particularly when
I was at the convent, from having unsuitable remedies
administered to me. Often, when my doctors and
nurses had reduced me to the last agony, and that
I was near death, God took pity on me, and sent me
some supernatural assistance, which effected an entire
cure.’
Four years before the suppression of her convent she
went to Flamske for two days to visit her parents.
Whilst there she went once to kneel and pray for some
hours before the miraculous Cross of the Church of
St. Lambert, at Coesfeld. She besought the Almighty
to bestow the gifts of peace and unity upon her convent,
offered him the Passion of Jesus Christ for that intention,
and implored him to allow her to feel a portion of
the sufferings which were endured by her Divine Spouse
on the Cross. From the time that she made this
prayer her hands and feet became burning and painful,
and she suffered constantly from fever, which she
believed was the cause of the pain in her hands and
feet, for she did not dare to think that her prayer
had been granted. Often she was unable to walk,
and the pain in her hands prevented her from working
as usual in the garden. On the 3rd December 1811,
the convent was suppressed, and the church closed.
(Under the Government of Jerome Bonaparte, King of
Westphalia.) The nuns dispersed in all directions,
but Anne Catherine remained, poor and ill. A kindhearted
servant belonging to the monastery attended upon her
out of charity, and an aged emigrant priest, who said
Mass in the convent, remained also with her.