or position that hasn’t been talked about in
the Pavilion before me. Of him I had only heard
that he was a very austere and pious person, always
at Mass, and that sort of thing. I saw a frail
little man with a long, yellow face and sunken fanatical
eyes, an Inquisitor, an unfrocked monk. One missed
a rosary from his thin fingers. He gazed at me
terribly and I couldn’t imagine what he might
want. I waited for him to pull out a crucifix
and sentence me to the stake there and then.
But no; he dropped his eyes and in a cold, righteous
sort of voice informed me that he had called on behalf
of the prince—he called him His Majesty.
I was amazed by the change. I wondered now why
he didn’t slip his hands into the sleeves of
his coat, you know, as begging Friars do when they
come for a subscription. He explained that the
Prince asked for permission to call and offer me his
condolences in person. We had seen a lot of him
our last two months in Paris that year. Henry
Allegre had taken a fancy to paint his portrait.
He used to ride with us nearly every morning.
Almost without thinking I said I should be pleased.
Don Rafael was shocked at my want of formality, but
bowed to me in silence, very much as a monk bows,
from the waist. If he had only crossed his hands
flat on his chest it would have been perfect.
Then, I don’t know why, something moved me
to make him a deep curtsy as he backed out of the
room, leaving me suddenly impressed, not only with
him but with myself too. I had my door closed
to everybody else that afternoon and the Prince came
with a very proper sorrowful face, but five minutes
after he got into the room he was laughing as usual,
made the whole little house ring with it. You
know his big, irresistible laugh. . . .”
“No,” said Mills, a little abruptly, “I
have never seen him.”
“No,” she said, surprised, “and
yet you . . . "
“I understand,” interrupted Mills.
“All this is purely accidental. You must
know that I am a solitary man of books but with a secret
taste for adventure which somehow came out; surprising
even me.”
She listened with that enigmatic, still, under the
eyelids glance, and a friendly turn of the head.
“I know you for a frank and loyal gentleman.
. . Adventure—and books? Ah,
the books! Haven’t I turned stacks of them
over! Haven’t I? . . .”
“Yes,” murmured Mills. “That’s
what one does.”
She put out her hand and laid it lightly on Mills’
sleeve.
“Listen, I don’t need to justify myself,
but if I had known a single woman in the world, if
I had only had the opportunity to observe a single
one of them, I would have been perhaps on my guard.
But you know I hadn’t. The only woman
I had anything to do with was myself, and they say
that one can’t know oneself. It never
entered my head to be on my guard against his warmth
and his terrible obviousness. You and he were
the only two, infinitely different, people, who didn’t
approach me as if I had been a precious object in
a collection, an ivory carving or a piece of Chinese
porcelain. That’s why I have kept you in
my memory so well. Oh! you were not obvious!
As to him—I soon learned to regret I was
not some object, some beautiful, carved object of bone
or bronze; a rare piece of porcelain, pate dure, not
pate tendre. A pretty specimen.”