of the savage instincts hidden in the breast of mankind;
these yells of festivity suggested agonizing fear,
rage of murder, ferocity of lust, and the irremediable
joylessness of human condition: yet they were
emitted by people who were convinced that they were
amusing themselves supremely, traditionally, with
the sanction of ages, with the approval of their conscience—and
no mistake about it whatever! Our appearance,
the soberness of our gait made us conspicuous.
Once or twice, by common inspiration, masks rushed
forward and forming a circle danced round us uttering
discordant shouts of derision; for we were an outrage
to the peculiar proprieties of the hour, and besides
we were obviously lonely and defenceless. On
those occasions there was nothing for it but to stand
still till the flurry was over. My companion,
however, would stamp his feet with rage, and I must
admit that I myself regretted not having provided
for our wearing a couple of false noses, which would
have been enough to placate the just resentment of
those people. We might have also joined in the
dance, but for some reason or other it didn’t
occur to us; and I heard once a high, clear woman’s
voice stigmatizing us for a “species of swelled
heads” (espece d’enfles). We proceeded
sedately, my companion muttered with rage, and I was
able to resume my thinking. It was based on the
deep persuasion that the man at my side was insane
with quite another than Carnivalesque lunacy which
comes on at one stated time of the year. He was
fundamentally mad, though not perhaps completely; which
of course made him all the greater, I won’t
say danger but, nuisance.
I remember once a young doctor expounding the theory
that most catastrophes in family circles, surprising
episodes in public affairs and disasters in private
life, had their origin in the fact that the world
was full of half-mad people. He asserted that
they were the real majority. When asked whether
he considered himself as belonging to the majority,
he said frankly that he didn’t think so; unless
the folly of voicing this view in a company, so utterly
unable to appreciate all its horror, could be regarded
as the first symptom of his own fate. We shouted
down him and his theory, but there is no doubt that
it had thrown a chill on the gaiety of our gathering.
We had now entered a quieter quarter of the town and
Senor Ortega had ceased his muttering. For myself
I had not the slightest doubt of my own sanity.
It was proved to me by the way I could apply my intelligence
to the problem of what was to be done with Senor Ortega.
Generally, he was unfit to be trusted with any mission
whatever. The unstability of his temper was sure
to get him into a scrape. Of course carrying
a letter to Headquarters was not a very complicated
matter; and as to that I would have trusted willingly
a properly trained dog. My private letter to
Dona Rita, the wonderful, the unique letter of farewell,
I had given up for the present. Naturally I