a vain passion of such magnitude that being locked
up within my breast it gave me an illusion of lonely
greatness with my miserable head uplifted amongst
the stars. But when I made up my mind (which
I did quickly, to be done with it) to call on the
banker’s wife, almost the first thing she said
to me was that the Marquis de Villarel was “amongst
us.” She said it joyously. If in
her husband’s room at the bank legitimism was
a mere unpopulated principle, in her salon Legitimacy
was nothing but persons. “Il m’a
cause beaucoup de vous,” she said as if there
had been a joke in it of which I ought to be proud.
I slunk away from her. I couldn’t believe
that the grandee had talked to her about me.
I had never felt myself part of the great Royalist
enterprise. I confess that I was so indifferent
to everything, so profoundly demoralized, that having
once got into that drawing-room I hadn’t the
strength to get away; though I could see perfectly
well my volatile hostess going from one to another
of her acquaintances in order to tell them with a
little gesture, “Look! Over there—in
that corner. That’s the notorious Monsieur
George.” At last she herself drove me
out by coming to sit by me vivaciously and going into
ecstasies over “ce cher Monsieur Mills”
and that magnificent Lord X; and ultimately, with
a perfectly odious snap in the eyes and drop in the
voice, dragging in the name of Madame de Lastaola
and asking me whether I was really so much in the confidence
of that astonishing person. “Vous devez
bien regretter son depart pour Paris,” she cooed,
looking with affected bashfulness at her fan. . .
. How I got out of the room I really don’t
know. There was also a staircase. I did
not fall down it head first—that much I
am certain of; and I also remember that I wandered
for a long time about the seashore and went home very
late, by the way of the Prado, giving in passing a
fearful glance at the Villa. It showed not a
gleam of light through the thin foliage of its trees.
I spent the next day with Dominic on board the little
craft watching the shipwrights at work on her deck.
From the way they went about their business those
men must have been perfectly sane; and I felt greatly
refreshed by my company during the day. Dominic,
too, devoted himself to his business, but his taciturnity
was sardonic. Then I dropped in at the cafe and
Madame Leonore’s loud “Eh, Signorino,
here you are at last!” pleased me by its resonant
friendliness. But I found the sparkle of her
black eyes as she sat down for a moment opposite me
while I was having my drink rather difficult to bear.
That man and that woman seemed to know something.
What did they know? At parting she pressed my
hand significantly. What did she mean?
But I didn’t feel offended by these manifestations.
The souls within these people’s breasts were
not volatile in the manner of slightly scented and
inflated bladders. Neither had they the impervious
skins which seem the rule in the fine world that wants
only to get on. Somehow they had sensed that
there was something wrong; and whatever impression
they might have formed for themselves I had the certitude
that it would not be for them a matter of grins at
my expense.