failed. The incubus of the universe blackened
down upon my brain. How I tugged at the mandrakes
of speech! was a locked pugilist with language!
In the depth of my extremity the half-thought, I remember,
floated, like a mist, through my fading consciousness,
that now perhaps—now—there was
silence around me; that now, could my palsied
lips find dialect, I should be heard, and understood.
My whole soul rose focussed to the effort—my
body jerked itself upwards. At that moment I
knew my spirit truly great, genuinely sublime.
For I did utter something—my dead
and shuddering tongue did babble forth some
coherency. Then I fell back, and all was once
more the ancient Dark. On the next day when I
woke, I was lying on my back in my little boat, placed
there by God knows whose hands. At all events,
one thing was clear—I had uttered
something—I was saved. With what of
strength remained to me I reached the place where
I had left your caleche, and started on my
homeward way. The necessity to sleep was strong
upon me, for the fumes of the anaesthetic still clung
about my brain; hence, after my long journey, I fainted
on my passage through the house, and in this condition
you found me.
’Such then is the history of my thinkings and doings in connection with this ill-advised confraternity: and now that their cabala is known to others—to how many others they cannot guess—I think it is not unlikely that we shall hear little more of the Society of Sparta.’