early days after his return from the country she used
to drive him wild with delight, as with pussycat caresses
she kissed him all round his face and whiskers and
vowed that he was her own dear pet and the only little
man she adored. He was no longer afraid of Georges,
whom his mother kept down at Les Fondettes. There
was only fat Steiner to reckon with, and he believed
he was really ousting him, but he did not dare provoke
an explanation on his score. He knew he was once
more in an extraordinary financial scrape and on the
verge of being declared bankrupt on ’change,
so much so that he was clinging fiercely to the shareholders
in the Landes Salt Pits and striving to sweat a final
subscription out of them. Whenever he met him
at Nana’s she would explain reasonably enough
that she did not wish to turn him out of doors like
a dog after all he had spent on her. Besides,
for the last three months he had been living in such
a whirl of sensual excitement that, beyond the need
of possessing her, he had felt no very distinct impressions.
His was a tardy awakening of the fleshly instinct,
a childish greed of enjoyment, which left no room
for either vanity or jealousy. Only one definite
feeling could affect him now, and that was Nana’s
decreasing kindness. She no longer kissed him
on the beard! It made him anxious, and as became
a man quite ignorant of womankind, he began asking
himself what possible cause of offense he could have
given her. Besides, he was under the impression
that he was satisfying all her desires. And so
he harked back again and again to the letter he had
received that morning with its tissue of falsehoods,
invented for the extremely simple purpose of passing
an evening at her own theater. The crowd had
pushed him forward again, and he had crossed the passage
and was puzzling his brain in front of the entrance
to a restaurant, his eyes fixed on some plucked larks
and on a huge salmon laid out inside the window.
At length he seemed to tear himself away from this
spectacle. He shook himself, looked up and noticed
that it was close on nine o’clock. Nana
would soon be coming out, and he would make her tell
the truth. And with that he walked on and recalled
to memory the evenings he once passed in that region
in the days when he used to meet her at the door of
the theater.
He knew all the shops, and in the gas-laden air he
recognized their different scents, such, for instance,
as the strong savor of Russia leather, the perfume
of vanilla emanating from a chocolate dealer’s
basement, the savor of musk blown in whiffs from the
open doors of the perfumers. But he did not dare
linger under the gaze of the pale shopwomen, who looked
placidly at him as though they knew him by sight.
For one instant he seemed to be studying the line of
little round windows above the shops, as though he
had never noticed them before among the medley of
signs. Then once again he went up to the boulevard
and stood still a minute or two. A fine rain was