“I could not tell you—­indeed, I would not tell you, if I could—­how by degrees I found out what I had done,—­that I had flung away my heart on a woman who married me simply to secure herself the position in society which her own imprudence had lost; how, when she found I had nothing to offer her but a home in my father’s house, entirely dependent upon him, she accused me of having deceived her for the sake of her own miserable pittance; how she made herself the common talk of Newport by her dissipation, her extravagance, her affectations; how her love of excitement led her into such undisguised flirtations, under the name of friendships, with almost every man she met, that her imprudences, to call them by no harsher name, made my father insist, that, for my mother’s sake, I should seek another home.

“I did so, but it was only to go through a repetition of similar scenes, of daring follies on her part, and reproaches on mine.  At last, desperate, I induced my father to settle on her what would have been my share of his property on condition that she should return to New York,—­while I, crushed down, mortified, and ashamed to look my friends in the face, and sick of the wrongs and follies of civilized life, grasped eagerly at an opportunity to join a fur-trading party, and buried myself alive in the wilds of the Northwest.

“I had no object in going there but to escape from my wife and from myself; but, once there, the charm of that free life took possession of me; adventure followed adventure; opportunities opened to me, and I grew to be an influential person, and made myself a home among the Indians.  It is a wild life that the Indian traders live up in that far-away country, and many a reckless deed is done there which public opinion would frown upon here.  I am afraid I was no better than my companions; I lived my life and drew from it whatever enjoyment it would bring; but, at least, I did not brutalize myself as some of them did; for that I may thank the refining influence of my early education.  Meantime, I was almost lost to my family and, indeed, I hardly regretted it, for nothing would have brought me back while my wife lived, and, if I were not to be with my friends, why eat my heart out with longings for them?  So, for nearly twenty years, I lived the life of adventure, danger, and privation, that draws its only charm from its independence.

“At last came a letter from your mother.  It found its way to me from fort to fort, brought up part of the way with the letters to the troops stationed at our upper forts, then carried by the Indian runners to the trading-posts of the fur-companies till it reached me in the depths of the Rocky Mountains.  My wife was dead,—­she had died suddenly; my property, all that she had not squandered, (and it was so tied up by my father’s forethought that she could only throw away a part of it,) was my own again; my sister longed to see me, and promised me a welcome to her house and heart.  I grew restless