I went into the cuddy.  My captain sat at the head of the table like a statue.  There was a strange motionlessness of everything in that pretty little cabin.  The swing-table which for seventy odd days had been always on the move, if ever so little, hung quite still above the soup-tureen.  Nothing could have altered the rich colour of my commander’s complexion, laid on generously by wind and sea; but between the two tufts of fair hair above his ears, his skull, generally suffused with the hue of blood, shone dead white, like a dome of ivory.  And he looked strangely untidy.  I perceived he had not shaved himself that day; and yet the wildest motion of the ship in the most stormy latitudes we had passed through, never made him miss one single morning ever since we left the Channel.  The fact must be that a commander cannot possibly shave himself when his ship is aground.  I have commanded ships myself, but I don’t know; I have never tried to shave in my life.

He did not offer to help me or himself till I had coughed markedly several times.  I talked to him professionally in a cheery tone, and ended with the confident assertion: 

“We shall get her off before midnight, sir.”

He smiled faintly without looking up, and muttered as if to himself: 

“Yes, yes; the captain put the ship ashore and we got her off.”

Then, raising his head, he attacked grumpily the steward, a lanky, anxious youth with a long, pale face and two big front teeth.

“What makes this soup so bitter?  I am surprised the mate can swallow the beastly stuff.  I’m sure the cook’s ladled some salt water into it by mistake.”

The charge was so outrageous that the steward for all answer only dropped his eyelids bashfully.

There was nothing the matter with the soup.  I had a second helping.  My heart was warm with hours of hard work at the head of a willing crew.  I was elated with having handled heavy anchors, cables, boats without the slightest hitch; pleased with having laid out scientifically bower, stream, and kedge exactly where I believed they would do most good.  On that occasion the bitter taste of a stranding was not for my mouth.  That experience came later, and it was only then that I understood the loneliness of the man in charge.

It’s the captain who puts the ship ashore; it’s we who get her off.

XXII.

It seems to me that no man born and truthful to himself could declare that he ever saw the sea looking young as the earth looks young in spring.  But some of us, regarding the ocean with understanding and affection, have seen it looking old, as if the immemorial ages had been stirred up from the undisturbed bottom of ooze.  For it is a gale of wind that makes the sea look old.

From a distance of years, looking at the remembered aspects of the storms lived through, it is that impression which disengages itself clearly from the great body of impressions left by many years of intimate contact.