Martin Eden eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 523 pages of information about Martin Eden.

Martin Eden eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 523 pages of information about Martin Eden.

“I wonder if I can get some advice from you,” he began, and received an acquiescence of willingness that made his heart bound.  “You remember the other time I was here I said I couldn’t talk about books an’ things because I didn’t know how?  Well, I’ve ben doin’ a lot of thinkin’ ever since.  I’ve ben to the library a whole lot, but most of the books I’ve tackled have ben over my head.  Mebbe I’d better begin at the beginnin’.  I ain’t never had no advantages.  I’ve worked pretty hard ever since I was a kid, an’ since I’ve ben to the library, lookin’ with new eyes at books—­an’ lookin’ at new books, too—­I’ve just about concluded that I ain’t ben reading the right kind.  You know the books you find in cattle-camps an’ fo’c’s’ls ain’t the same you’ve got in this house, for instance.  Well, that’s the sort of readin’ matter I’ve ben accustomed to.  And yet—­an’ I ain’t just makin’ a brag of it—­I’ve ben different from the people I’ve herded with.  Not that I’m any better than the sailors an’ cow-punchers I travelled with,—­I was cow-punchin’ for a short time, you know,—­but I always liked books, read everything I could lay hands on, an’—­well, I guess I think differently from most of ’em.

“Now, to come to what I’m drivin’ at.  I was never inside a house like this.  When I come a week ago, an’ saw all this, an’ you, an’ your mother, an’ brothers, an’ everything—­well, I liked it.  I’d heard about such things an’ read about such things in some of the books, an’ when I looked around at your house, why, the books come true.  But the thing I’m after is I liked it.  I wanted it.  I want it now.  I want to breathe air like you get in this house—­air that is filled with books, and pictures, and beautiful things, where people talk in low voices an’ are clean, an’ their thoughts are clean.  The air I always breathed was mixed up with grub an’ house-rent an’ scrappin’ an booze an’ that’s all they talked about, too.  Why, when you was crossin’ the room to kiss your mother, I thought it was the most beautiful thing I ever seen.  I’ve seen a whole lot of life, an’ somehow I’ve seen a whole lot more of it than most of them that was with me.  I like to see, an’ I want to see more, an’ I want to see it different.

“But I ain’t got to the point yet.  Here it is.  I want to make my way to the kind of life you have in this house.  There’s more in life than booze, an’ hard work, an’ knockin’ about.  Now, how am I goin’ to get it?  Where do I take hold an’ begin?  I’m willin’ to work my passage, you know, an’ I can make most men sick when it comes to hard work.  Once I get started, I’ll work night an’ day.  Mebbe you think it’s funny, me askin’ you about all this.  I know you’re the last person in the world I ought to ask, but I don’t know anybody else I could ask—­unless it’s Arthur.  Mebbe I ought to ask him.  If I was—­”

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