He toiled on all day, recollecting, at the last moment, that he was to have dinner at the Morses’.  Thanks to Brissenden, his black suit was out of pawn and he was again eligible for dinner parties.  Down town he stopped off long enough to run into the library and search for Saleeby’s books.  He drew out “The Cycle of Life,” and on the car turned to the essay Norton had mentioned on Spencer.  As Martin read, he grew angry.  His face flushed, his jaw set, and unconsciously his hand clenched, unclenched, and clenched again as if he were taking fresh grips upon some hateful thing out of which he was squeezing the life.  When he left the car, he strode along the sidewalk as a wrathful man will stride, and he rang the Morse bell with such viciousness that it roused him to consciousness of his condition, so that he entered in good nature, smiling with amusement at himself.  No sooner, however, was he inside than a great depression descended upon him.  He fell from the height where he had been up-borne all day on the wings of inspiration.  “Bourgeois,” “trader’s den”—­Brissenden’s epithets repeated themselves in his mind.  But what of that? he demanded angrily.  He was marrying Ruth, not her family.

It seemed to him that he had never seen Ruth more beautiful, more spiritual and ethereal and at the same time more healthy.  There was color in her cheeks, and her eyes drew him again and again—­the eyes in which he had first read immortality.  He had forgotten immortality of late, and the trend of his scientific reading had been away from it; but here, in Ruth’s eyes, he read an argument without words that transcended all worded arguments.  He saw that in her eyes before which all discussion fled away, for he saw love there.  And in his own eyes was love; and love was unanswerable.  Such was his passionate doctrine.

The half hour he had with her, before they went in to dinner, left him supremely happy and supremely satisfied with life.  Nevertheless, at table, the inevitable reaction and exhaustion consequent upon the hard day seized hold of him.  He was aware that his eyes were tired and that he was irritable.  He remembered it was at this table, at which he now sneered and was so often bored, that he had first eaten with civilized beings in what he had imagined was an atmosphere of high culture and refinement.  He caught a glimpse of that pathetic figure of him, so long ago, a self-conscious savage, sprouting sweat at every pore in an agony of apprehension, puzzled by the bewildering minutiae of eating-implements, tortured by the ogre of a servant, striving at a leap to live at such dizzy social altitude, and deciding in the end to be frankly himself, pretending no knowledge and no polish he did not possess.