to the embassador, “in despair at your departure,
especially at a moment when affairs are becoming every
day more embarrassing and more painful, and when I
have therefore the greater need of an attachment as
sincere and enlightened as yours. But I feel
that all the powers, under different pretexts, will
withdraw their ministers one after another. It
is impossible to leave them incessantly exposed to
this disorder and license; but such is my destiny,
and I am forced to endure the horror of it to the
very end.[4]” But a fortnight later she tells
Madame de Polignac that “for some days things
have been wearing a better complexion. She can
not feel very sanguine, the mischievous folks having
such an interest in perverting every thing, and in
hindering every thing which, is reasonable, and such
means of doing so; but at the moment the number of
ill-intentioned people is diminished, or at least
the right-thinking of all classes and of all ranks
are more united ... You may depend upon it,”
she adds, “that misfortunes have not diminished
my resolution or my courage: I shall not lose
any of that; they will only give me more prudence.[5]”
Indeed, her own strength of mind, fortitude, and benevolence
were the only things in France which were not constantly
changing at this time; and she derived one lesson
from the continued vicissitudes to which she was exposed,
which, if partly grievous, was also in part full of
comfort and encouragement to so warm a heart.
“It is in moments such as these that one learns
to know men, and to see who are truly attached to one,
and who are not. I gain every day fresh experiences
in this point; sometimes cruel, sometimes pleasant;
for I am continually finding that some people are
truly and sincerely attached to us, to whom I never
gave a thought.”
Another of her old vexations was revived in the renewed
jealousy of Austrian influence with which the Jacobin
leaders at this time inspired the mob, and which was
so great that, when in the autumn Leopold sent the
young Prince de Lichtenstein as his envoy to notify
his accession, Marie Antoinette could only venture
to give him a single audience; and, greatly as she
enjoyed the opportunity of gathering from him news
of Vienna and of the old friends of the childhood
of whom she still cherished an affectionate recollection,
she was yet forced to dismiss him after a few minutes’
conversation, and to beg him to accelerate his departure
from Paris, lest even that short interview should
be made a pretext for fresh calumnies. “The
kindest thing that any Austrian of mark could do for
her,” she told her brother, “was to keep
away from Paris at present.[6]” She would gladly
have seen the Assembly interest itself a little in
the politics of the empire, where Leopold’s
own situation was full of difficulties; but the French
had not yet come to consider themselves as justified
in interfering in the internal government of other
countries. As she describes their feelings to
the emperor, “They feel their own individual