To this she answered nothing, but she shrugged her shoulders a little, and though he was not looking directly at her he saw the movement, and was offended by it. Such a little shrug was scarcely a breach of manners, but it was on the verge of vulgarity in his eyes, because he was persuaded that she had begun to change for the worse. He had already told himself that her way of speaking was not what it had been last year, and he felt that if the change went on she would set his teeth on edge some day; and that he was growing more and more sensitive, while she was continually becoming less so.
Margaret could not have understood that, and would have been hurt if he had tried to explain it. She was disappointed, because his letters had made her think that she was going to find him just as she had left him, as indeed he had been till the moment when he saw her after her arrival; but then he had changed at once. He had been disappointed then, as she was now, and chilled, as she was now; he had felt that he was shrinking from her then, as she now shrank from him. He suffered a good deal in his quiet way, for he had never known any woman who had moved him as she once had; but she suffered too, and in a much more resentful way. Two years of maddening success had made her very sure that she had a prime right to anything she wanted—within reason! If she let him alone he would sit out his half-hour’s visit, making an idle remark now and then, and he would go away; but she would not let him do that. It was too absurd that after a long and affectionate intimacy they should sit there in the soft light and exchange platitudes.
‘Tom,’ she said, suddenly resolving to break the ice, ’we have been much too good friends to behave in this way to each other. If something has come between us, I think you ought to tell me—don’t you?’
‘I wish I could,’ Lushington answered, after a moment’s hesitation.
‘If you know, you can,’ said Margaret, taking the upper hand and meaning to keep it.
‘That does not quite follow.’
‘Oh yes, it does,’ retorted Margaret energetically. ’I’ll tell you why. If it’s anything on your side, it’s not fair and honest to keep it from me after writing to me as you have written all winter. But if it’s the other way, there’s nothing you can possibly know about me which you cannot tell me, and if you think there is, then some one has been telling you what is not true.’
‘It’s nothing against you; I assure you it’s not.’
’Then there is a woman in the case. Why should you not say so frankly? We are not bound to each other in any way, I’m sure. I believe I once asked you to marry me, and you refused!’ She laughed rather sharply. ‘That does not constitute an engagement!’
‘You put the point rather brutally, I think,’ said Lushington.