“We have to have our roofs at a sharp pitch, to let the snow slide off in winter,” said Stephen, apologetically, “we have such heavy snows here; but that doesn’t make the angle any less ugly to look at.”
“No,” said Mercy; and her eyes still roved up and down and over the house, with not a shadow of relenting in their expression. It was Stephen’s turn to be silent now. He watched her, but did not speak.
Mercy’s face was not merely a record of her thoughts: it was a photograph of them. As plainly as on a written page held in his hand, Stephen White read the successive phases of thought and struggle which passed through Mercy’s mind for the next five minutes; and he was not in the least surprised when, turning suddenly towards him with a very sweet smile, she said in a resolute tone,—
“There! that’s done with. I hope you will forgive my rudeness, Mr. White; but the truth is I was awfully shocked at the first sight of the house. It isn’t your house, you know, so it isn’t quite so bad for me to say so; and I’m so glad you hate it as much as I do. Now I am never going to think about it again,—never.”
“Why, can you help it, Mrs. Philbrick?” asked Stephen, in a wondering tone. “I can’t. I hate it more and more, I verily believe, each time I come home; and I think that, if my mother weren’t in it, I should burn it down some night.”
Mercy looked at him with a certain shade of the same contempt with which she had looked at the house; and Stephen winced, as she said coolly,—
“Why, of course I can help it. I should be very much ashamed of myself if I couldn’t. I never allow myself to be distressed by things which I can’t help,—at least, that sort of thing,” added Mercy, her face clouding with the sudden recollection of a grief that she had not been able to rise above. “Of course, I don’t mean real troubles, like grief about any one you love. One can’t wholly conquer such troubles as that; but one can do a great deal more even with these than people usually suppose. I am not sure that it is right to let ourselves be unhappy about any thing, even the worst of troubles. But I must hurry home now. It is growing late.”
“Mrs. Philbrick,” exclaimed Stephen, earnestly: “please come into the house, and speak to my mother a moment. You don’t know how she has been looking forward to your coming.”
“Oh, no, I cannot possibly do that,” replied Mercy. “There is no reason why I should call on your mother, merely because we are going to live in the same house.”
“But I assure you,” persisted Stephen, “that it will give her the greatest pleasure. She is a helpless cripple, and never leaves her bed. She has probably been watching us from the window. She always watches for me. She will wonder if I do not bring you in to see her. Please come,” he said with a tone which it was impossible to resist; and Mercy went.