Lewis shuddered as he thought of that dreadful night. It was hardly two years ago, and the fearful things he heard then burned into his soul with terrible distinctness. It seemed as if their little cabin was deserted after that, for Tom, and Sam, and Nelly were almost grown up, and the rest were all little ones. The next winter his other sister, Fanny, died; but that wasn’t half so sad. She was about twelve years old, and a blithesome, cheerful creature, just as her mother had been. He remembered how his master came to their cabin to comfort them, as he said; but his mother told him plainly that she did not want any such comfort. She wished Nelly was dead too. She wished she had never had any children to grow up and suffer what she had. It was in vain her master tried to soothe her. He talked like a minister, as he was; but she had grown almost raving, and she talked to him as she never dared to do before. She wanted to know why he didn’t come to console her when she lost her other children; “three all at once” she said, “and they’re ten times worse than dead. You never consoled me then at all. Religion? Pooh! I don’t want none of your religion.”
And now she, too, was gone. She had been gone more than a year. It was said that she was hired out to work in another family; but it wasn’t so. They only told her that story to get her away from the children peaceably. She was sold quite a distance away to a very bad man, who used her cruelly.
Ned, who was some two years younger than Lewis, and the only brother he had left, was a wild, careless boy, who raced about among the other children, and did not seem to think much about anything. Lewis often wished he could have somebody to talk with, and he wondered if his mother would ever come back again.
Had he been a poet he might have put his wishes into verses like the following, in which Mrs. Follen has given beautiful expression to the wishes of such a slave boy as Lewis:
The slave boy’s wish.
I wish I was that little bird,
Up in the bright
blue sky,
That sings and flies just
where he will,
And no one asks
him why.
I wish I was that little brook,
That runs so swift
along,
Through pretty flowers and
shining stones,
Singing a merry
song.
I wish I was that butterfly,
Without a thought
or care,
Sporting my pretty, brilliant
wings,
Like a flower
in the air.
I wish I was that wild, wild
deer,
I saw the other
day,
Who swifter than an arrow
flew,
Through the forest
far away.
I wish I was that little cloud,
By the gentle
south wind driven,
Floating along so free and
bright,
Far, far up into
heaven.
I’d rather be a cunning
fox,
And hide me in
a cave;
I’d rather be a savage
wolf,
Than what I am—a
slave.