Do not make me desperate, Madam.  Permit me to say, that you shall not leave me in this humour.  Wherever you go, I will attend you.  Had Miss Howe been my friend, I had not been thus treated.  It is but too plain to whom my difficulties are owing.  I have long observed, that every letter you received from her, makes an alteration in your behaviour to me.  She would have you treat me, as she treats Mr. Hickman, I suppose:  but neither does that treatment become your admirable temper to offer, nor me to receive.

This startled her.  She did not care to have me think hardly of Miss Howe.

But recollecting herself, Miss Howe, said she, is a friend to virtue, and to good men.  If she like not you, it is because you are not one of those.

Yes, Madam; and therefore to speak of Mr. Hickman and myself, as you both, I suppose, think of each, she treats him as she would not treat a Lovelace.—­I challenge you, Madam, to shew me but one of the many letters you have received from her, where I am mentioned.

Miss Howe is just; Miss Howe is good, replied she.  She writes, she speaks, of every body as they deserve.  If you point me out but any one occasion, upon which you have reason to build a merit to yourself, as either just or good, or even generous, I will look out for her letter on that occasion [if such an occasion there be, I have certainly acquainted her with it]; and will engage it shall be in your favour.

Devilish severe!  And as indelicate as severe, to put a modish man upon hunting backward after his own merits.

She would have flung from me:  I will not be detained, Mr. Lovelace.  I will go out.

Indeed you must not, Madam, in this humour.  And I placed myself between her and the door.——­And then, fanning, she threw herself into a chair, her sweet face all crimsoned over with passion.

I cast myself at her feet.—­Begone, Mr. Lovelace, said she, with a rejecting motion, her fan in her hand; for your own sake leave me!—­My soul is above thee, man! with both her hands pushing me from her!—­Urge me not to tell thee, how sincerely I think my soul above thee!—­Thou hast, in mine, a proud, a too proud heart to contend with!—­Leave me, and leave me for ever!—­Thou has a proud heart to contend with!

Her air, her manner, her voice, were bewitchingly noble, though her words were so severe.

Let me worship an angel, said I, no woman.  Forgive me, dearest creature! —­creature if you be, forgive me!—­forgive my inadvertencies!—­forgive my inequalities!—­pity my infirmities!—­Who is equal to my Clarissa?

I trembled between admiration and love; and wrapt my arms about her knees, as she sat.  She tried to rise at the moment; but my clasping round her thus ardently, drew her down again; and never was woman more affrighted.  But free as my clasping emotion might appear to her apprehensive heart, I had not, at the instant, any thought but what reverence inspired.  And till she had actually withdrawn [which I permitted under promise of a speedy return, and on her consent to dismiss the chair] all the motions of my heart were as pure as her own.