the love which had existed between them,—a
feeling so feeble and so poor, compared to that which
he felt for me, as to be unworthy of the name.
He entreated, he implored my love. I was silent.
He bent over me, gazing into my face. There was
a traitor lurking in my heart, which looked out of
my eyes, and spoke without my consent. He understood
that language but too well. I bent my eyes upon
the ground,—his arm was around my waist,
his hand clasped mine, his lips approached my cheek.
A shadow seemed suddenly to come between me and the
sun. I looked up and saw Eleanor, clad in mourning,
standing before us. I started at once to my feet,
and, like the coward that I am, fled and left them
together. I ran down to the old hawthorn-tree,
against which I leaned, panting and trembling.
Yet, in a few moments, ashamed of my weakness, I stole
back to where I could see them unobserved. Eleanor
stood upon the same spot, calm and motionless.
Thornton was speaking, but I was too far off to hear
more than the sound of his voice. When he had
ended, he approached her, as if to bid her adieu;
but she passed him with a stately bow, and entered
the hall-door. Thornton took his way to the stables,
and I soon heard the clattering of his horse’s
hoofs on the hard gravelled road. When the sound
died away in the distance, I stole into the house and
crept up to my chamber. How long I was there I
could not tell; but when I heard the bell ring for
tea, I washed my face and smoothed my hair. I
would not be so cowardly as to fear to see Eleanor
again, and perhaps it would be better for us both
to meet in the presence of a third person.
“Mrs. Bickford was alone at the table.
’Miss Purcill would not come down tonight,—she
was fatigued with her journey.’
“The good lady strove to entertain me with her
conversation, but, finding that I neither heard, answered,
nor ate, our meal was soon brought to a close.
It is long past midnight. I have thought till
I am sick and giddy with thinking. I cannot sleep,
and have been writing here to control the wildness
of my imaginings. I have been twice to Eleanor’s
chamber. The door is half ground-glass, and I
can see her black shadow as she walks to and fro across
the room. She has been walking so ever since
she entered it.
“October 4.—What shall I do?
Where shall I go? All night and all day Eleanor
has walked her chamber-floor. I have been to the
door. I have knocked. I have called her
by name. I have turned the handle,—the
door is locked. No answer comes to me,—nothing
but the black shadow flitting across the panes.
I sat down by the threshold and burst into tears.
“Mrs. Bickford found me there. ‘Do
not grieve so, Miss Elizabeth,’ said she, kindly.
’It is dreadful, I know; but Miss Purcill walked
the floor all night after her father died, and would
admit no one to her room. She will be better
to-morrow.’