“The Canaanites would dwell in the land.”  “His heart hankered after every foolish vanity, and hung back both to and in every duty, as a clog on the leg of a bird to hinder her from flying.”  He thought that he was growing “worse and worse,” and was “further from conversion than ever before.”  Though he longed to let Christ into his heart, “his unbelief would, as it were, set its shoulder to the door to keep Him out.”

Yet all the while he was tormented with the most perverse scrupulosity of conscience.  “As to the act of sinning, I never was more tender than now; I durst not take a pin or a stick, though but so big as a straw, for my conscience now was sore, and would smart at every twist.  I could not now tell how to speak my words, for fear I should misplace them.  Oh! how gingerly did I then go in all I did or said:  I found myself in a miry bog, that shook if I did but stir, and was as those left both of God, and Christ, and the Spirit, and all good things.”  All the misdoings of his earlier years rose up against him.  There they were, and he could not rid himself of them.  He thought that no one could be so bad as he was; “not even the Devil could be his equal:  he was more loathsome in his own eyes than a toad.”  What then must God think of him?  Despair seized fast hold of him.  He thought he was “forsaken of God and given up to the Devil, and to a reprobate mind.”  Nor was this a transient fit of despondency.  “Thus,” he writes, “I continued a long while, even for some years together.”

This is not the place minutely to pursue Bunyan’s religious history through the sudden alternations of hopes and fears, the fierce temptations, the torturing illusions, the strange perversions of isolated scraps of Bible language—­texts torn from their context—­the harassing doubts as to the truth of Christianity, the depths of despair and the elevations of joy, which he has portrayed with his own inimitable graphic power.  It is a picture of fearful fascination that he draws.  “A great storm” at one time comes down upon him, “piece by piece,” which “handled him twenty times worse than all he had met with before,” while “floods of blasphemies were poured upon his spirit,” and would “bolt out of his heart.”  He felt himself driven to commit the unpardonable sin and blaspheme the Holy Ghost, “whether he would or no.”  “No sin would serve but that.”  He was ready to “clap his hand under his chin,” to keep his mouth shut, or to leap head-foremost “into some muckhill-hole,” to prevent his uttering the fatal words.  At last he persuaded himself that he had committed the sin, and a good but not overwise man, “an ancient Christian,” whom he consulted on his sad case, told him he thought so too, “which was but cold comfort.”  He thought himself possessed by the devil, and compared himself to a child “carried off under her apron by a gipsy.”  “Kick sometimes I did, and also shriek and cry, but yet I was as bound in