it is questionable whether the Act forbidding the use
of the Book of Common Prayer was strictly observed
at Elstow, it is certain that the prohibition of Sunday
sports was not. Bunyan’s narrative shows
that the aspect of a village green in Bedfordshire
during the Protectorate did not differ much from what
Baxter tells us it had been in Shropshire before the
civil troubles began, where, “after the Common
Prayer had been read briefly, the rest of the day even
till dark night almost, except eating time, was spent
in dancing under a maypole and a great tree, when
all the town did meet together.” These
Sunday sports proved the battle-ground of Bunyan’s
spiritual experience, the scene of the fierce inward
struggles which he has described so vividly, through
which he ultimately reached the firm ground of solid
peace and hope. As a high-spirited healthy athletic
young fellow, all kinds of manly sports were Bunyan’s
delight. On week days his tinker’s business,
which he evidently pursued industriously, left him
small leisure for such amusements. Sunday therefore
was the day on which he “did especially solace
himself” with them. He had yet to learn
the identification of diversions with “all manner
of vice.” The teaching came in this way.
One Sunday, Vicar Hall preached a sermon on the sin
of Sabbath-breaking, and like many hearers before
and since, he imagined that it was aimed expressly
at him. Sermon ended, he went home “with
a great burden upon his spirit,” “sermon-stricken”
and “sermon sick” as he expresses it elsewhere.
But his Sunday’s dinner speedily drove away
his self-condemning thoughts. He “shook
the sermon out of his mind,” and went out to
his sports with the Elstow lads on the village green,
with as “great delight” as ever.
But in the midst of his game of tip-cat or “sly,”
just as he had struck the “cat” from its
hole, and was going to give it a second blow—the
minuteness of the detail shows the unforgetable reality
of the crisis—he seemed to hear a voice
from heaven asking him whether “he would leave
his sins and go to heaven, or keep his sins and go
to hell.” He thought also that he saw Jesus
Christ looking down on him with threatening countenance.
But like his own Hopeful he “shut his eyes
against the light,” and silenced the condemning
voice with the feeling that repentance was hopeless.
“It was too late for him to look after heaven;
he was past pardon.” If his condemnation
was already sealed and he was eternally lost, it would
not matter whether he was condemned for many sins
or for few. Heaven was gone already. The
only happiness he could look for was what he could
get out of his sins—his morbidly sensitive
conscience perversely identifying sports with sin—so
he returned desperately to his games, resolved, he
says, to “take my fill of sin, still studying
what sin was yet to be committed that I might taste
the sweetness of it.”