years absence from school, their eyes shining with
pleasure, while they shake hands with their old master,
bringing a present of game to me, or a toy to my wife,
and thanking me in the warmest terms for my care of
their education. A holiday is begged for the boys;
the house is a scene of happiness; I, only, am sad
at heart—This fine-spirited and warm-hearted
youth, who fancies he repays his master with gratitude
for the care of his boyish years—this young
man—in the eight long years I watched over
him with a parent’s anxiety, never could repay
me with one look of genuine feeling. He was proud,
when I praised; he was submissive, when I reproved
him; but he did never love me—and
what he now mistakes for gratitude and kindness for
me, is but the pleasant sensation, which all persons
feel at revisiting the scene of their boyish hopes
and fears; and the seeing on equal terms the man they
were accustomed to look up to with reverence.
My wife too,” this interesting correspondent
goes on to say, “my once darling Anna, is the
wife of a schoolmaster.—When I married
her—knowing that the wife of a schoolmaster
ought to be a busy notable creature, and fearing that
my gentle Anna would ill supply the loss of my dear
bustling mother, just then dead, who never sat still,
was in every part of the house in a moment, and whom
I was obliged sometimes to threaten to fasten down
in a chair, to save her from fatiguing herself to
death—I expressed my fears, that I was bringing
her into a way of life unsuitable to her; and she,
who loved me tenderly, promised for my sake to exert
herself to perform the duties of her new situation.
She promised, and she has kept her word. What
wonders will not woman’s love perform?—My
house is managed with a propriety and decorum, unknown
in other schools; my boys are well fed, look healthy,
and have every proper accommodation; and all this
performed with a careful economy, that never descends
to meanness. But I have lost my gentle, helpless
Anna!—When we sit down to enjoy an hour
of repose after the fatigue of the day, I am compelled
to listen to what have been her useful (and they are
really useful) employments through the day, and what
she proposes for her to-morrow’s task. Her
heart and her features are changed by the duties of
her situation. To the boys, she never appears
other than the master’s wife, and she
looks up to me as the boys’ master; to
whom all show of love and affection would be highly
improper, and unbecoming the dignity of her situation
and mine. Yet this my gratitude forbids
me to hint to her. For my sake she submitted
to be this altered creature, and can I reproach her
for it?”—For the communication of
this letter, I am indebted to my cousin Bridget.
[Footnote 1: Urn Burial.]