from his grave air and deportment I judged to be one
of the old Benchers of the Inn. He had a serious
thoughtful forehead, and seemed to be in meditations
of mortality. As I have an instinctive awe of
old Benchers, I was passing him with that sort of
subindicative token of respect which one is apt to
demonstrate towards a venerable stranger, and which
rather denotes an inclination to greet him than any
positive motion of the body to that effect—a
species of humility and will-worship which I observe
nine times out of ten rather puzzles than pleases
the person it is offered to—when the face
turning full upon me strangely identified itself with
that of Dodd. Upon close inspection I was not
mistaken. But could this sad thoughtful countenance
be the same vacant face of folly which I had hailed
so often under circumstances of gaiety; which I had
never seen without a smile, or recognized but as the
usher of mirth; that looked out so formally flat in
Foppington, so frothily pert in Tattle, so impotently
busy in Backbite; so blankly divested of all meaning,
or resolutely expressive of none, in Acres, in Fribble,
and a thousand agreeable impertinences? Was this
the face—full of thought and carefulness—that
had so often divested itself at will of every trace
of either to give me diversion, to clear my cloudy
face for two or three hours at least of its furrows?
Was this the face—manly, sober, intelligent,—which
I had so often despised, made mocks at, made merry
with? The remembrance of the freedoms which I
had taken with it came upon me with a reproach of
insult. I could have asked it pardon. I
thought it looked upon me with a sense of injury.
There is something strange as well as sad in seeing
actors—your pleasant fellows particularly—subjected
to and suffering the common lot—their fortunes,
their casualties, their deaths, seem to belong to the
scene, their actions to be amenable to poetic justice
only. We can hardly connect them with more awful
responsibilities. The death of this fine actor
took place shortly after this meeting. He had
quitted the stage some months; and, as I learned afterwards,
had been in the habit of resorting daily to these
gardens almost to the day of his decease. In
these serious walks probably he was divesting himself
of many scenic and some real vanities—weaning
himself from the frivolities of the lesser and the
greater theatre—doing gentle penance for
a life of no very reprehensible fooleries,—taking
off by degrees the buffoon mask which he might feel
he had worn too long—and rehearsing for
a more solemn cast of part. Dying he “put
on the weeds of Dominic."[5]