A chamber deaf to noise, and blind to light;
A rosy garland, and a weary head.
And if these things, as being thine by right,
Move not thy heavy grace, thou shalt in me,
Livelier than elsewhere, STELLA’S image see.
III
The curious wits, seeing dull pensiveness
Bewray itself in my long-settled eyes,
Whence those same fumes of melancholy
rise,
With idle pains, and missing aim, do guess.
Some, that know how my spring I did address,
Deem that my Muse some fruit of knowledge
plies;
Others, because the Prince my service
tries,
Think, that I think state errors to redress;
But harder judges judge, ambition’s
rage,
Scourge of itself, still climbing slippery
place,
Holds my young brain captiv’d in
golden cage.
O fools, or over-wise! alas, the race
Of all my thoughts hath neither stop nor
start,
But only STELLA’S eyes, and STELLA’S
heart.
IV
Because I oft in dark abstracted guise
Seem most alone in greatest company,
With dearth of words, or answers quite
awry,
To them that would make speech of speech
arise;
They deem, and of their doom the rumour
flies,
That poison foul of bubbling Pride
doth lie
So in my swelling breast, that only I
Fawn on myself, and others do despise;
Yet Pride, I think, doth not my
Soul possess,
Which looks too oft in his unflattering
glass:
But one worse fault—Ambition—I
confess,
That makes me oft my best friends overpass,
Unseen, unheard—while Thought
to highest place
Bends all his powers, even unto STELLA’S
grace.
V
Having this day, my horse, my hand, my
lance,
Guided so well that I obtained the prize,
Both by the judgment of the English eyes,
And of some sent from that sweet enemy,—France;
Horsemen my skill in horsemanship advance;
Townsfolk my strength; a daintier judge
applies
His praise to sleight, which from good
use doth rise;
Some lucky wits impute it but to chance;
Others, because of both sides I do take
My blood from them, who did excel in this,
Think Nature me a man of arms did make.
How far they shot awry! the true cause
is,
STELLA look’d on, and from her heavenly
face
Sent forth the beams which made so fair
my race.
VI
In martial sports I had my cunning tried,
And yet to break more staves did me address,
While with the people’s shouts (I
must confess)
Youth, luck, and praise, even fill’d
my veins with pride—
When Cupid, having me (his slave) descried
In Mars’s livery, prancing in the
press,
“What now, Sir Fool!” said
he; “I would no less:
Look here, I say.” I look’d,
and STELLA spied,
Who hard by made a window send forth light.