No, she demurred, not a baby’s face, but—then
she laughed aloud at herself—was not her
fate the common fate of all? Who, among her friends,
at forty years of age, was ever taken, or mistaken,
for twenty-five or thirty? And if
she
were, what then? Would her work be worth more
to the world? Would the angels encamp about her
more faithfully or more lovingly? And, then,
was there not a face “marred”? Did
he live his life upon the earth with no sign of it
in his face? Was it not a part of his human nature
to grow older? Could she be human and not grow
old? If she lived she must grow old; to grow
old or to die, that was the question, and then she
laughed again, this time more merrily. Had she
made the changes herself by fretting and worrying;
had she taken life too hard? Yes; she had taken
life hard. Another glance into the glass revealed
another fact: her neck was not as full and round
and white as it once was: there was a suggestion
of old china about that, too. She would discard
linen collars and wear softening white ruffles; it
would not be deceitful to hide Time’s naughty
little tracery. She smiled this time; she
was
coming to a hard place in her life. She had believed—oh,
how much in vain!—that she had come to
all the hard places and waded through them, but here
there was looming up another, fully as hard, perhaps
harder, because it was not so tangible and, therefore,
harder to face and fight. The acknowledging that
she had come to this hard place was something.
She remembered the remark of an old lady, who was
friendless and poor: “The hardest time
of my life was between forty and forty-five; I had
to accept several bitter facts that after became easier
to bear.” Prudence Pomeroy looked at herself,
then looked up to God and accepted, submissively, even
cheerfully, his fact that she had begun to grow old,
and then, she dressed herself for a walk and with
her sun-umbrella and a volume of poems started out
for her tramp along the road and through the fields
to find her little friend Marjorie. The china
plate and pathetic note last night had moved her strangely.
Marjorie was in the beginning of things. What
was her life worth if not to help such as Marjorie
live a worthier life than her own two score years
had been?
A face flushed with the long walk looked in at the
window upon Marjorie asleep. The child was sitting
near the open window in a wooden rocker with padded
arms and back and covered with calico with a green
ground sprinkled over with butterflies and yellow
daisies; her head was thrown back against the knitted
tidy of white cotton, and her hands were resting in
her lap; the blue muslin was rather more crumpled than
when she had seen it last, and instead of the linen
collar the lace was knotted about her throat.
The bandage had been removed from her forehead, the
swelling had abated but the discolored spot was plainly
visible; her lips were slightly parted, her cheeks
were rosy; if this were the “beginning of things”
it was a very sweet and peaceful beginning.