When we came to the usual place of meeting—­it was close by, and Mr. Woodcourt had often accompanied me before—­my guardian was not there.  We waited half an hour, walking up and down, but there were no signs of him.  We agreed that he was either prevented from coming or that he had come and gone away, and Mr. Woodcourt proposed to walk home with me.

It was the first walk we had ever taken together, except that very short one to the usual place of meeting.  We spoke of Richard and Ada the whole way.  I did not thank him in words for what he had done—­my appreciation of it had risen above all words then—­but I hoped he might not be without some understanding of what I felt so strongly.

Arriving at home and going upstairs, we found that my guardian was out and that Mrs. Woodcourt was out too.  We were in the very same room into which I had brought my blushing girl when her youthful lover, now her so altered husband, was the choice of her young heart, the very same room from which my guardian and I had watched them going away through the sunlight in the fresh bloom of their hope and promise.

We were standing by the opened window looking down into the street when Mr. Woodcourt spoke to me.  I learned in a moment that he loved me.  I learned in a moment that my scarred face was all unchanged to him.  I learned in a moment that what I had thought was pity and compassion was devoted, generous, faithful love.  Oh, too late to know it now, too late, too late.  That was the first ungrateful thought I had.  Too late.

“When I returned,” he told me, “when I came back, no richer than when I went away, and found you newly risen from a sick bed, yet so inspired by sweet consideration for others and so free from a selfish thought—­”

“Oh, Mr. Woodcourt, forbear, forbear!” I entreated him.  “I do not deserve your high praise.  I had many selfish thoughts at that time, many!”

“Heaven knows, beloved of my life,” said he, “that my praise is not a lover’s praise, but the truth.  You do not know what all around you see in Esther Summerson, how many hearts she touches and awakens, what sacred admiration and what love she wins.”

“Oh, Mr. Woodcourt,” cried I, “it is a great thing to win love, it is a great thing to win love!  I am proud of it, and honoured by it; and the hearing of it causes me to shed these tears of mingled joy and sorrow—­joy that I have won it, sorrow that I have not deserved it better; but I am not free to think of yours.”

I said it with a stronger heart, for when he praised me thus and when I heard his voice thrill with his belief that what he said was true, I aspired to be more worthy of it.  It was not too late for that.  Although I closed this unforeseen page in my life to-night, I could be worthier of it all through my life.  And it was a comfort to me, and an impulse to me, and I felt a dignity rise up within me that was derived from him when I thought so.