Oh! dreadful price of being
to resign
All that is dear in
being! better far
In Want’s most lonely
cave till death to pine,
Unseen, unheard, unwatched
by any star;
Or in the streets and walks
where proud men are,
Better our dying bodies to
obtrude,
Than dog-like, wading at the
heels of war,
Protract a curst existence,
with the brood
That lap (their very nourishment!)
their brother’s blood.
Only in the editions of 1798 and 1800.]
[Variant 35:
1842.
It would thy brain unsettle even to hear. 1798.]
[Variant 36:
1842.
Peaceful as some immeasurable
plain
By the first beams of dawning light
impress’d, 1798.]
[Variant 37:
1827.
... has its hour of rest,
That comes not to the human
mourner’s breast. 1798.
I too was calm, though heavily distress’d! 1802.]
[Variant 38:
1842.
Remote from man, and storms
of mortal care,
A heavenly silence did the
waves invest;
I looked and looked along
the silent air,
Until it seemed to bring a
joy to my despair. 1798.
Oh me, how quiet sky and ocean
were!
My heart was healed within
me, I was bless’d.
And looked, and looked ...
1802.
My heart was hushed within me, ... 1815.
As quiet all within me, ... 1827.]
[Variant 39:
1800.
Where looks inhuman dwelt on festering heaps! 1798.]
[Variant 40: The following stanza appeared only in the editions 1798-1805:
Yet does that burst of woe
congeal my frame,
When the dark streets appeared
to heave and gape,
While like a sea the storming
army came,
And Fire from Hell reared
his gigantic shape,
And Murder, by the ghastly
gleam, and Rape
Seized their joint prey, the
mother and the child!
But from these crazing thoughts
my brain, escape!
—For weeks the balmy
air breathed soft and mild,
And on the gliding vessel
Heaven and Ocean smiled. 1798.
At midnight once the storming
Army came,
Yet do I see the miserable
sight,
The Bayonet, the Soldier,
and the Flame
That followed us and faced
us in our flight:
When Rape and Murder by the
ghastly light
Seized their joint prey, the
Mother and the Child!
But I must leave these thoughts.—From
night to night,
From day to day, the air breathed
soft and mild;
And on the gliding vessel
Heaven and Ocean smiled. 1802-5.]
[Variant 41:
1802.
And oft, robb’d of my
perfect mind, I thought
At last my feet a resting-place
had found:
Here will I weep in peace,
(so fancy wrought,) 1798.]