Dorn bade his new-made friends adieu, and in the darkening twilight he hurried toward his own camp.
“If I could go back home now, honorably and well, I would never do it,” he muttered. “I couldn’t bear to live knowing what I know now—unless I had laughed at this death, and risked it—and dealt it!”
He was full of gladness, of exultation, in contemplation of the wonderful gift the hours had brought him. More than any men of history or present, he honored these soldiers the Germans feared. Like an Indian, Dorn respected brawn, courage, fortitude, silence, aloofness.
“There was a divinity in those soldiers,” he soliloquized. “I felt it in their complete ignorance of their greatness. Yet they had pride, jealousy. Oh, the mystery of it all!... When my day comes I’ll last one short and terrible hour. I would never make a soldier like one of them. No American could. They are Frenchmen whose homes have been despoiled.”
In the tent of his comrades that night Dorn reverted from old habit, and with a passionate eloquence he told all he had seen and heard, and much that he had felt. His influence on these young men, long established, but subtle and unconscious, became in that hour a tangible fact. He stirred them. He felt them thoughtful and sad, and yet more unflinching, stronger and keener for the inevitable day.
CHAPTER XXVII
The monstrous possibility that had consumed Kurt Dorn for many months at last became an event—he had arrived on the battle-front in France.
All afternoon the company of United States troops had marched from far back of the line, resting, as darkness came on, at a camp of reserves, and then going on. Artillery fire had been desultory during this march; the big guns that had rolled their thunder miles and miles were now silent. But an immense activity and a horde of soldiers back of the lines brought strange leaden oppression to Kurt Dorn’s heart.