a vigorous English schoolmistress, and imperilled
the soul of any Lady-Abbess whose list of permissible
penances excluded the dark cell and the scourge.
Fortunately for both parties, I had the advantage of
governess and Superior in the natural awe which girls
feel for the authority of manhood—till
they have found out of what soft fibre men are made—and
in the artificial fear inspired by domestic usage and
tradition. For I was soon aware that even on its
ridiculous side the relation was not to be trifled
with. The simple indifference a man feels towards
the escapades of girlhood was not applicable to women
and wives, who yet lacked womanly sense and the feeling
of conjugal duty. This serious aspect of their
position soon contracted the indulgence naturally
conceded to youth’s heedlessness and animal
spirits. These, displayed at first only in the
energy and eagerness of their every movement within
the narrow limits of conventional usage, broke all
bounds when, after one or two half-timid, half-venturous
experiments on my patience, they felt that they had,
at least for the moment, exchanged the monotony, the
mechanical routine, the stern repression of their
life in the great Nurseries, not for the harsh household
discipline to which they naturally looked forward,
but for the “loosened zone” which to them
seemed to promise absolute liberty. When not
immediately in my presence or Eveena’s, their
keen enjoyment of a life so new, the sudden development
of the brighter side of their nature under circumstances
that gave play to the vigorous vitality of youth,
gave as much pleasure to me as to themselves.
But in contact with myself or Eveena they were women,
and showed only the wrong side of the varied texture
of womanhood. To the master they were slaves,
each anxious to attract his notice, win his preference;
before the favourite, spiteful, envious of her and
of each other, bitter, malicious, and false.
For Eveena’s sake, it was impossible to look
on with indolent indifference on freaks of temper
which, childish in the form they assumed, were envenomed
by the deliberate dislike and unscrupulous cunning
of jealous women.
But even on the childish side of their character and
conduct, they soon displayed a determination to test
by actual experiment the utmost extent of the liberty
allowed, and the nature and sufficiency of its limits.
Eunane was always the most audacious trespasser and
representative rebel. Fortunately for her, the
daring which had bewildered and exasperated feminine
guardians rather amused and interested me, giving
some variety and relief to the monotonous absurdity
of the situation. Nothing in her conduct was more
remarkable or more characteristic than the simplicity
and good temper with which she generally accepted
as of course the less agreeable consequences of her
outbreaks; unless it were the sort of natural dignity
with which, when she so pleased, the game played out
and its forfeit paid, the naughty child subsided into
the lively but rational companion, and the woman simply
ignored the scrapes of the school-girl.