less preoccupied. Enured to the perils of war,
of the chase, of Eastern diplomacy, and of travel
in the wildest parts of the Earth, I do not pretend
indifference to the fear of assassination, and especially
of poison. Cromwell, and other soldiers of equal
nerve and clearer conscience, have found their iron
courage sorely shaken by a peril against which no
precautions were effective and from which they could
not enjoy an hour’s security. The incessant
continuous strain on the nerves is, I suppose, the
chief element in the peculiar dread with which brave
men have regarded this kind of peril; as the best troops
cannot endure to be under fire in their camp.
Weighing, however, the probability that girls who
had been selected by the Sovereign, and had left their
Nursery only to pass directly into my house, could
have been already bribed or seduced to become the
instruments of murderous treachery, I found it but
slight; and before we reached the house I had made
up my mind to discard the apprehensions or precautions
recommended to me on their account. Far better,
if need be, to die by poison than to live in hourly
terror of it. Better to be murdered than to suspect
of secret treason those with whom I must maintain the
most intimate relations, and whose sex and years made
it intolerable to believe them criminal. I dismissed
the thought, then; and believing that I had probably
wronged them in allowing it to dwell for a moment
in my mind, I felt perhaps more tenderly than before
towards them, and certainly indisposed to name to
Eveena a suspicion of which I was myself ashamed.
Perhaps, too, youth and beauty weighed in my conclusion
more than cool reason would have allowed. A Martial
proverb says—
“Trust a foe, and you may rue it;
Trust a friend, and perish through
it.
Trust a woman if you will;—
Thrice betrayed, you’ll trust
her still.”
As to the general warning, I was wishful to consult
Eveena, and unwilling to withhold from her any secret
of my thoughts; but equally averse to disturb her
with alarms that were trying even to nerves seasoned
by the varied experience of twenty years against every
open peril.
CHAPTER XX — LIFE, SOCIAL AND DOMESTIC.
As we approached the house I caught sight of Eveena’s
figure among the party gathered on the roof.
She had witnessed the interview, but her habitual
and conscientious deference forbade her to ask a confidence
not volunteered; and she seemed fully satisfied when,
on the first occasion on which we were alone, I told
her simply that the stranger belonged to the Zinta
and had been recommended by her father himself to
the charge of my estate. Though reluctant to disturb
her mind with fears she could not shake off as I could,
and which would make my every absence at least a season
of terror, the sense of insecurity doubtless rendered
me more anxious to enjoy whenever possible the only
society in which it was permissible to be frank and