And who knows what may happen to make you glad
that, since there must be strife, I am one of
the enemy rather than a stranger? I feel
that we shall be brought together in danger, when it
may be my happiness to serve you or yours.
But, even if I am not so favored, I shall still
ask your love. You know our Southern ways.
Whom I love my mother loves. But my mother
and sister Rosa have loved you long and dearly.
They have known you as long as I have, and when
you consent to come to us you will take no stranger’s
place in the heart and home of the family.
Remember the motto you gave me. You are a
woman, therefore tender; I am daring, Heaven knows,
in aspiring to such a reward as your love. But
I dare to love you; if you cast that love from you,
love will lose its tenderness, bravery its daring.
One of the high mountains of hope whereon I sun
my fainting soul is the knowledge that you love
no one else. I won’t say that you should
in love hold to the ride ‘first come first served,’
but I do say, ‘first dare, first win.’
And when you reflect on what you said about the
accident of war separating us, just put Jack in
my place. What would you think of a Southern
girl who should refuse him because he fought on
the side of his family and his State? What
is the old line? ’I could not love
thee, dear, so much, loved I not honor more.’
I’m sure I couldn’t ask your love
if there were not honor in my own. The war
will be over and forgotten in six months, but
you and I are young; we have long years before us.
The right will win in the contest, and, right or
wrong, I am yours, and only yours, while there
are life in my body and hope in my soul.
Vincent.”
In a little glow of what was plainly not displeasure,
the young woman “filed” this “writ
of pre-emption,” as Jack afterward called it,
in careful hiding, and resumed meditation of the writer.
It could not now be answered, for letters between
the lines were subject to censorship, and Olympia
perhaps shrank from adding to her lover’s misery
by exposing his rejection to the unfeeling eyes of
the postal agents. There was pity in the resolve
as well as prudence. Had Vincent been able to
read the workings of the lady’s mind, he would
have donned his rebel gray with more buoyant joy that
day in Richmond. Another ally of the absent came
in the course of the day. Miss Boone, the daughter
of the opulent contractor and chief local magnate,
called to plan work for the soldiers. Vincent’s
name being mentioned, Miss Boone said, in the apparent
effusion of girlish intimacy:
“I like Mr. Atterbury very much. He is
a charming fellow. But, for your family’s
sake, I am glad he is away from this house.”
At Olympia’s surprised start she nodded as if
to emphasize this, continuing: “Yes, and
for good reasons. You know our house is the high
court of abolitionism? Well, papa’s cronies
have made Mr. Atterbury’s visit cause of suspicion.”
“Suspicion? What do you mean?”