will be able to amuse yourself to make it passable.  Many do.  There are a number of fine things to be seen here.  If you are curious, come with me and I will show you.  Or work,—­there is even work.  There is only one thing that is impossible, or if not impossible—­’ And here he paused again and raised his eyes to the dark clouds and lurid sky overhead.  ’The man who gave that cry! if I could but find him! he must have seen—­’

‘What could he see?’ I asked.  But there arose in my mind something like contempt.  A visionary! who could not speak plainly, who broke off into mysterious inferences, and appeared to know more than he would say.  It seemed foolish to waste time, when evidently there was still so much to see, in the company of such a man; and I began already to feel more at home.  There was something in that moment of anguish which had wrought a strange familiarity in me with my surroundings.  It was so great a relief to return out of the misery of that sharp and horrible self-realization, to what had come to be, in comparison, easy and well known.  I had no desire to go back and grope among the mysteries and anguish so suddenly revealed.  I was glad to be free from them, to be left to myself, to get a little pleasure perhaps like the others.  While these thoughts passed through my mind, I had gone on without any active impulse of my own, as everybody else did; and my latest companion had disappeared.  He saw, no doubt, without any need for words, what my feelings were.  And I proceeded on my way.  I felt better as I got more accustomed to the place, or perhaps it was the sensation of relief after that moment of indescribable pain.  As for the sights in the streets, I began to grow used to them.  The wretched creatures who strolled or sat about with signs of sickness or wounds upon them disgusted me only, they no longer called forth my pity.  I began to feel ashamed of my silly questions about the hospital.  All the same, it would have been a good thing to have had some receptacle for them, into which they might have been driven out of the way.  I felt an inclination to push them aside as I saw other people do, but was a little ashamed of that impulse too; and so I went on.  There seemed no quiet streets, so far as I could make out, in the place.  Some were smaller, meaner, with a different kind of passengers, but the same hubbub and unresting movement everywhere.  I saw no signs of melancholy or seriousness; active pain, violence, brutality, the continual shock of quarrels and blows, but no pensive faces about, no sorrowfulness, nor the kind of trouble which brings thought.  Everybody was fully occupied, pushing on as if in a race, pausing for nothing.