at such luxurious ease and calm. But by and by,
as she came to full possession of her waking senses,
it appeared to her that there was some change in the
atmosphere, in the scene. There began to steal
into the air about her, the soft dawn as of a summer
morning, the lovely blueness of the first opening of
daylight before the sun. It could not be the
light of the moon, which she had seen before she went
to bed; and all was so still, that it could not be
the bustling, wintry day which comes at that time
of the year late, to find the world awake before it.
This was different; it was like the summer dawn, a
soft suffusion of light growing every moment.
And by and by it occurred to her that she was not
in the little room where she had lain down. There
were no dim walls or roof, her little pictures were
all gone, the curtains at her window. The discovery
gave her no uneasiness in that delightful calm.
She lay still to think of it all, to wonder, yet undisturbed.
It half amused her that these things should be changed,
but did not rouse her yet with any shock of alteration.
The light grew fuller and fuller round, growing into
day, clearing her eyes from the sweet mist of the
first waking. Then she raised herself upon her
arm. She was not in her room, she was in no scene
she knew. Indeed it was scarcely a scene at all,
nothing but light, so soft and lovely, that it soothed
and caressed her eyes. She thought all at once
of a summer morning when she was a child, when she
had woke in the deep night which yet was day, early,
so early that the birds were scarcely astir, and had
risen up with a delicious sense of daring and of being
all alone in the mystery of the sunrise, in the unawakened
world which lay at her feet to be explored, as if
she were Eve just entering upon Eden. It was curious
how all those childish sensations, long forgotten,
came back to her as she found herself so unexpectedly
out of her sleep in the open air and light. In
the recollection of that lovely hour, with a smile
at herself, so different as she now knew herself to
be, she was moved to rise and look a little more closely
about her, and see where she was.
When I call her a little Pilgrim, I do not mean that
she was a child; on the contrary, she was not even
young. She was little by nature, with as little
flesh and blood as was consistent with mortal life;
and she was one of those who are always little for
love. The tongue found diminutives for her, the
heart kept her in a perpetual youth. She was so
modest and so gentle, that she always came last, so
long as there was any one whom she could put before
her. But this little body, and the soul which
was not little, and the heart which was big and great,
had known all the round of sorrows that fill a woman’s
life, without knowing any of its warmer blessings.
She had nursed the sick, she had entertained the weary,
she had consoled the dying. She had gone about
the world, which had no prize or recompense for her,
with a smile. Her little presence had been always
bright. She was not clever; you might have said
she had no mind at all; but so wise and right and
tender a heart, that it was as good as genius.
This is to let you know what this little Pilgrim had
been.