It was impossible (almost) to contemplate the idea
that at a given moment the whole machinery must stop.
She was neither without heart nor without religion,
but on the contrary a good woman, to whom many gentle
thoughts had been given at various portions of her
career. But the occasion seemed to have passed
for that as well as other kinds of emotion. The
mere fact of living was enough for her. The little
exertion which it was well she was required to make
produced a pleasant weariness. It was a duty
much enforced upon her by all around her, that she
should do nothing which would exhaust or fatigue.
“I don’t want you to think,” even
the doctor would say; “you have done enough
of thinking in your time.” And this she
accepted with great composure of spirit. She had
thought and felt and done much in her day; but now
everything of the kind was over. There was no
need for her to fatigue herself; and day followed day,
all warm and sheltered and pleasant. People
died, it is true, now and then, out of doors; but
they were mostly young people, whose death might have
been prevented had proper care been taken,—who
were seized with violent maladies, or caught sudden
infections, or were cut down by accident; all which
things seemed natural. Her own contemporaries
were very few, and they were like herself—living
on in something of the same way. At eighty-five
all people under seventy are young; and one’s
contemporaries are very, very few.
Nevertheless these men did disturb her a little about
her will. She had made more than one will in
the former days during her active life; but all those
to whom she had bequeathed her possessions were dead.
She had survived them all, and inherited from many
of them; which had been a hard thing in its time.
One day the lawyer had been more than ordinarily pressing.
He had told her stories of men who had died intestate,
and left trouble and penury behind them to those whom
they would have most wished to preserve from all trouble.
It would not have become Mr. Furnival to say brutally
to Lady Mary, “This is how you will leave your
godchild when you die.” But he told her
story after story, many of them piteous enough.
“People think it is so troublesome a business,”
he said, “when it is nothing at all—the
most easy matter in the world. We are getting
so much less particular nowadays about formalities.
So long as the testator’s intentions are made
quite apparent—that is the chief matter,
and a very bad thing for us lawyers.”
“I dare say,” said Lady Mary, “it
is unpleasant for a man to think of himself as ‘the
testator.’ It is a very abstract title,
when you come to think of it.”
“Pooh’” said Mr. Furnival, who had
no sense of humor.
“But if this great business is so very simple,”
she went on, “one could do it, no doubt, for
one’s self?”