of the earl, who was Lady Mary’s natural heir,
nor to feel herself separated from the house in which
all her previous life had been passed. But there
had been gradually dawning upon her a sense that she
had come to a crisis in her life, and that she must
soon be told what was to become of her. It was
not so urgent as that she should ask any questions;
but it began to appear very clearly in her mind that
things were not to be with her as they had been.
She had heard the complaints and astonishment of the
servants, to whom Lady Mary had left nothing, with
resentment,—Jervis, who could not marry
and take her lodging-house, but must wait until she
had saved more money, and wept to think, after all
her devotion, of having to take another place; and
Mrs. Prentiss, the housekeeper, who was cynical, and
expounded Lady Mary’s kindness to her servants
to be the issue of a refined selfishness; and Brown,
who had sworn subdued oaths, and had taken the liberty
of representing himself to Mary as “in the same
box” with herself. Mary had been angry,
very angry at all this; and she had not by word or
look given any one to understand that she felt herself
“in the same box.” But yet she had
been vaguely anxious, curious, desiring to know.
And she had not even begun to think what she should
do. That seemed a sort of affront to her godmother’s
memory, at all events, until some one had made it
clear to her. But now, in a moment, with her
first consciousness of the importance of this matter
in the sight of others, a consciousness of what it
was to herself, came into her mind. A change
of everything,—a new life,—a
new world; and not only so, but a severance from the
old world,—a giving up of everything that
had been most near and pleasant to her.
These thoughts were driven through her mind like the
snowflakes in a storm. The year had slid on since
Lady Mary’s death. Winter was beginning
to yield to spring; the snow was over, and the great
cold. And other changes had taken place.
The great house had been let, and the family who had
taken it had been about a week in possession.
Their coming had inflicted a wound upon Mary’s
heart; but everybody had urged upon her the idea that
it was much better the house should be let for a time,
“till everything was settled.” When
all was settled, things would be different. Mrs.
Vicar did not say, “You can then do what you
please,” but she did convey to Mary’s
mind somehow a sort of inference that she would have
something to do it with. And when Mary had protested.
“It shall never be let again with my will,”
the kind woman had said tremulously, “Well, my
dear!” and had changed the subject. All
these things now came to Mary’s mind. They
had been afraid to tell her; they had thought it would
be so much to her,—so important, such a
crushing blow. To have nothing,—to
be destitute; to be written about by Mr. Furnival
to the earl; to have her case represented,—Mary
felt herself stung by such unendurable suggestions