of a child, and a wish to talk to some one out of
the fullness of her heart. She overtook, her step
being far lighter than his, one of the men going home
from his work, and spoke to him, telling him with
a smile not to be afraid; but he never so much as
raised his head, and went plodding on with his heavy
step, not knowing that she had spoken to him.
She was startled by this; but said to herself, that
the men were dull, that their perceptions were confused,
and that it was getting dark; and went on, passing
him quickly. His breath made a cloud in the air
as he walked, and his heavy plodding steps sounded
into the frosty night. She perceived that her
own were invisible and inaudible, with a curious momentary
sensation, half of pleasure, half of pain. She
felt no cold, and she saw through the twilight as clearly
as if it had been day. There was no fatigue or
sense of weakness in her; but she had the strange,
wistful feeling of an exile returning after long years,
not knowing how he may find those he had left.
At one of the first houses in the village there was
a woman standing at her door, looking out for her
children; one who knew Lady Mary well. She stopped
quite cheerfully to bid her good evening, as she had
done in her vigorous days, before she grew old.
It was a little experiment, too. She thought it
possible that Catherine would scream out, and perhaps
fly from her; but surely would be easily reassured
when she heard the voice she knew, and saw by her
one who was no ghost, but her own kind mistress.
But Catherine took no notice when she spoke; she did
not so much as turn her head. Lady Mary stood
by her patiently, with more and more of that wistful
desire to be recognized. She put her hand timidly
upon the woman’s arm, who was thinking of nothing
but her boys, and calling to them, straining her eyes
in the fading light. “Don’t be afraid,
they are coming, they are safe,” she said, pressing
Catherine’s arm. But the woman never moved.
She took no notice. She called to a neighbor
who was passing, to ask if she had seen the children,
and the two stood and talked in the dim air, not conscious
of the third who stood between them, looking from one
to another, astonished, paralyzed. Lady Mary
had not been prepared for this; she could not believe
it even now. She repeated their names more and
more anxiously, and even plucked at their sleeves
to call their attention. She stood as a poor
dependent sometimes stands, wistful, civil, trying
to say something that will please, while they talked
and took no notice; and then the neighbor passed on,
and Catherine went into her house. It is hard
to be left out in the cold when others go into their
cheerful houses; but to be thus left outside of life,
to speak and not be heard, to stand unseen, astounded,
unable to secure any attention! She had thought
they would be frightened, but it was not they who were
frightened. A great panic seized the woman who
was no more of this world. She had almost rejoiced