sensations are over, when the soul is no longer either
triumphant or miserable, and when life itself, and
comfort and ease, and the warmth of the sun, and of
the fireside, and the mild beauty of home were enough
for her, and she required no more. That is, she
required very little more, a useful routine of hours
and rules, a play of reflected emotion, a pleasant
exercise of faculty, making her feel herself still
capable of the best things in life—of interest
in her fellow-creatures, kindness to them, and a little
gentle intellectual occupation, with books and men
around. She had not forgotten anything in her
life,—not the excitements and delights of
her beauty, nor love, nor grief, nor the higher levels
she had touched in her day. She did not forget
the dark day when her first-born was laid in the grave,
nor that triumphant and brilliant climax of her life
when every one pointed to her as the mother of a hero.
All these things were like pictures hung in the secret
chambers of her mind, to which she could go back in
silent moments, in the twilight seated by the fire,
or in the balmy afternoon, when languor and sweet
thoughts are over the world. Sometimes at such
moments there would be heard from her a faint sob,
called forth, it was quite as likely, by the recollection
of the triumph as by that of the deathbed. With
these pictures to go back upon at her will she was
never dull, but saw herself moving through the various
scenes of her life with a continual sympathy, feeling
for herself in all her troubles,—sometimes
approving, sometimes judging that woman who had been
so pretty, so happy, so miserable, and had gone through
everything that life can go through. How much
that is, looking back upon it!—passages
so hard that the wonder was how she could survive
them; pangs so terrible that the heart would seem
at its last gasp, but yet would revive and go on.
Besides these, however, she had many mild pleasures.
She had a pretty house full of things which formed
a graceful entourage suitable, as she felt,
for such a woman as she was, and in which she took
pleasure for their own beauty,—soft chairs
and couches, a fireplace and lights which were the
perfection of tempered warmth and illumination.
She had a carriage, very comfortable and easy, in
which, when the weather was suitable, she went out;
and a pretty garden and lawns, in which, when she
preferred staying at home, she could have her little
walk, or sit out under the trees. She had books
in plenty, and all the newspapers, and everything
that was needful to keep her within the reflection
of the busy life which she no longer cared to encounter
in her own person. The post rarely brought her
painful letters; for all those impassioned interests
which bring pain had died out, and the sorrows of others,
when they were communicated to her, gave her a luxurious
sense of sympathy, yet exemption. She was sorry
for them; but such catastrophes could touch her no
more: and often she had pleasant letters, which