Touch had undergone a modification more peculiar.
Its impressions were tardily received, but pertinaciously
retained, and resulted always in the highest physical
pleasure. Thus the pressure of your sweet fingers
upon my eyelids, at first only recognized through
vision, at length, long after their removal, filled
my whole being with a sensual delight immeasurable.
I say with a sensual delight. All my perceptions
were purely sensual. The materials furnished
the passive brain by the senses were not in the
least degree wrought into shape by the deceased understanding.
Of pain there was some little; of pleasure there was
much; but of moral pain or pleasure none at all.
Thus your wild sobs floated into my ear with all
their mournful cadences, and were appreciated in
their every variation of sad tone; but they were soft
musical sounds and no more; they conveyed to the
extinct reason no intimation of the sorrows which
gave them birth; while large and constant tears
which fell upon my face, telling the bystanders of
a heart which broke, thrilled every fibre of my
frame with ecstasy alone. And this was in truth
the Death of which these bystanders spoke
reverently, in low whispers—you, sweet Una,
gaspingly, with loud cries.
They attired me for the coffin—three or four dark figures which flitted busily to and fro. As these crossed the direct line of my vision they affected me as forms; but upon passing to my side their images impressed me with the idea of shrieks, groans, and, other dismal expressions of terror, of horror, or of woe. You alone, habited in a white robe, passed in all directions musically about.
The day waned; and, as its light faded away, I became possessed by a vague uneasiness—an anxiety such as the sleeper feels when sad real sounds fall continuously within his ear—low distant bell-tones, solemn, at long but equal intervals, and commingling with melancholy dreams. Night arrived; and with its shadows a heavy discomfort. It oppressed my limbs with the oppression of some dull weight, and was palpable. There was also a moaning sound, not unlike the distant reverberation of surf, but more continuous, which, beginning with the first twilight, had grown in strength with the darkness. Suddenly lights were brought into the rooms, and this reverberation became forthwith interrupted into frequent unequal bursts of the same sound, but less dreary and less distinct. The ponderous oppression was in a great measure relieved; and, issuing from the flame of each lamp (for there were many), there flowed unbrokenly into my ears a strain of melodious monotone. And when now, dear Una, approaching the bed upon which I lay outstretched, you sat gently by my side, breathing odor from your sweet lips, and pressing them upon my brow, there arose tremulously within my bosom, and mingling with the merely physical sensations which circumstances had called forth, a something akin to sentiment itself—a