There is one rock especially which I had climbed in the rain and fog of early morning.  A reckless path goes across its face with a sharp pitch to the ocean.  It was so slippery and the wind so tugged and pulled to throw me off, that although I endangered my dignity, I played the quadruped on the narrower parts.  But once on top in the open blast of the storm and safe upon the level, I thumped with desire for a plot.  In each inlet from the ocean I saw a pirate lugger—­such is the pleasing word—­with a keg of rum set up.  Each cranny led to a cavern with doubloons piled inside.  The very tempest in my ears was compounded out of ships at sea and wreck and pillage.  I needed but a plot, a thread of action to string my villains on.  If this were once contrived, I would spice my text with sailors’ oaths and such boasting talk as might lie in my invention.  Could I but come upon a plot, I might yet proclaim myself an author.

With this guilty secret in me I blushed as I asked the question.  It seemed sure that the shopkeeper must guess my purpose.  I felt myself suspected as though I were a rascal buying pistols to commit a murder.  Indeed, I seem to remember having read that even hardened criminals have become confused before a shopkeeper and betrayed themselves.  Of course, Dick Turpin and Jerry Abershaw could call for pistols in the same easy tone they ordered ale, but it would take a practiced villainy.  But I in my innocence wanted nothing but the meager outline of a pirate’s life, which I might fatten to my uses.

But on a less occasion, when there is no plot thumping in me, I still feel a kind of embarrassment when I ask for a book out of the general demand.  I feel so like an odd stick.  This embarrassment applies not to the request for other commodities.  I will order a collar that is quite outside the fashion, in a high-pitched voice so that the whole shop can hear.  I could bargain for a purple waistcoat—­did my taste run so—­and though the sidewalk listened, it would not draw a blush.  I have traded even for women’s garments—­though this did strain me—­without an outward twitch.  Finally, to top my valor, I have bought sheet music of the lighter kind and have pronounced the softest titles so that all could hear.  But if I desire the poems of Lovelace or the plays of Marlowe, I sidle close up to the shopkeeper to get his very ear.  If the book is visible, I point my thumb at it without a word.

It was but the other day—­in order to fill a gap in a paper I was writing—­I desired to know the name of an author who is obscure although his work has been translated into nearly all languages.  I wanted to know a little about the life of the man who wrote Mary Had a Little Lamb, which, I am told, is known by children over pretty much all the western world.  It needed only a trip to the Public Library.  Any attendant would direct me to the proper shelf.  Yet once in the building, my courage oozed.  My question, though serious, seemed too ridiculous to be asked.  I would sizzle as I met the attendant’s eye.  Of a consequence, I fumbled on my own devices, possibly to the increase of my general knowledge, but without gaining what I sought.